For the second night in a row I've had 6 or more uninterrupted hours of sleep. Day before yesterday I had the unwelcome feeling of out of control weeping... prompting me to call the Dr. to see about starting anti-depressants again. Even tho I was sure getting off them in the first place was "Father arranged". She has not returned my call yet. I understand she's in office only 2 days this week and has already a full to overloaded schedule. And that's OK. Yesterday I felt myself again, and today promises to be even better. I had thought it would be nice to have them in hand - just in case. Insurance that makes my lack of faith glaringly visible.
Bible reading this morning didn't touch any chords with me, tho I did write down a portion of the beginning prayer to ponder and refer to during the remainder of the day.
"May our love for You express itself in our eagerness to do good for others." Kind of the "be ye kind one to another" thought that is never out of style or fashion... One that is dear to my heart.
Today UPS will deliver the horridly expensive chemo meds that have thru some arrangements I'm not sure of been given to us for 20 something dollars. I'm fairly certain they will make Larry sick and he has had to promise he will take them all - no matter what. I feel for him. No one wants to do something guaranteed to make them feel bad on purpose, regardless of the knowledge that it's good for them.
Today I need to see about making the back of our car comfortable for him to rest in on the way back from hospital next Tuesday. Today I need to clean out the fridge. Today I need to keep my mind centered on the knowledge that He holds us in the palm of His hand securely. Today I need to not worry or let my mind wander to the uncertainty of the future. Today will be a good day whatever it brings.
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