Today is Larry's Birthday - he should be 61. And I am leaving home. The daughter thinks it would be a good start to a new normal if we didn't sit in his house missing him over Christmas. New beginnings - not better - not worse,... just different. I don't want to do this! I don't want to learn new things that don't include him. 18 days - not enough for me not to be howling in pain and grieving the emptiness of this world.
I am leaving my little sister alone meaning I'm alone without the little sister too. How will we manage it? I miss her already and I'm not even gone yet. I need to call her and get her to teach me how to skype or google talk or whatever it is she does with her grandkids.
I think I'll do that now instead of sitting here thinking on what's missing...
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