I’ve got tears in my ears from lying on my back while crying
over you
… The words to this old song came to me whilst lying on my back
on the couch crying… it’s 2014 a year he’ll never be in… 2 days ago it was 4
weeks since he died… tomorrow is a month… etc.
The thoughts that run thru my mind, I’m sure are normal,
they’re just so painful. Whilst
cleaning, I wonder how long it will be before there are none of his
fingerprints left in my house? How long
will it be before there’s no scent of him in his closet? How long til’ a day
passes without pain? I know a year of firsts
is a milestone. So this is the first New
Years Day alone. I can’t imagine what
the next year will bring.
I should be building myself up spiritually. I should be reading Scripture to surround my
mind and heart with comfort of the ages.
I have promises, a whole book full of them that I’m not utilizing. And the thought comes… I still have to go
thru the process – I still have to do the time that brings me out on the other
side.
Today I have to dry mom’s clothes. Today I have to wash my hair. Today I have to get things together for the
probate appt. tomorrow. These are the
things I have to do. And so I will…
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